This is my first Mother’s Day with my baby on his side of the womb.
What I now know since becoming a mother
I know that I like to be in control.
I know that I’m not in control.
I know that planning something your whole life doesn’t mean it will go as planned.
I know what it’s like to not eat for a whole day and I know what it’s like to eat junk to feed your body that’s begging for quick energy.
I know what it’s like to not sleep for more than 3 maximum total hours a day for months on end.
I know I’ve never loved anyone more while also wanting to run away from them.
I know being given the chance to raise Nora is incredible.
I know I will fail to meet my own expectations.
I know that no brand of diapers, disposable or cloth, will contain the powerful expulsions of my child’s sphincter.
I know I post a lot of baby pictures.
I know the total loss of any shred of vanity. Maybe someday I will have energy to even care again. 🤷🏻♀️
know that being a mother is my greatest accomplishment. No matter what the world says about motherhood, nothing I have done or will do is more important.
I know what it’s like to not put on a real bra (nursing bras only) for 11 months and I also know the wonder of putting on a real bra after 11 months. It felt more wonderful than I ever remembered a bra feeling btw.
I know that assault is a crime and throat punching women who complain about their easier babies is not a good idea.
I know that I care less about most everything than I did before, but that I care for my favorite people more than ever.
I know my heart will never belong to me again.
I know how to be more flexible.
I know that I am no longer the same person I was last year on this day.
I know God is using motherhood to humble me and to hold a mirror to my strengths and weaknesses.
I know that my heart flops and my stomach flutters when Nora laughs.
I know that I can’t do it all anymore.
I know a sloppy, wet, baby kiss can erase the horrors of the worst days.
I know that I would go through all the terrible parts of the last 2 years to have 2 hours with Nora now.
I know the relief that a sleeping baby brings.
I know I wouldn’t trade my life for anyone’s.
I know how fortunate I am to be a mother.